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I exist behind a guise
Crushed beneath professional hair
Cannot breathe inside this suit
The one I swore I’d never wear
They were the worst days of my life
Yet I’m back inside in that cell
The one I thought I had escaped
The one that I always called hell
The things we do to pay the bills
Can make us strangers to ourselves
If only I could see me now
But I have become someone else
In my bathroom there’s a mirror
But staring back at me
Unrecognizable reflection
Pseudo identity
I plaster on my daily smile
The one the world expects
I turn away and close the door
My tie a noose around my neck
I hear the words fall from my throat
Saying things I don’t believe
Same old stories I was told
The ones from which I had been freed
Until I had masters to please
Bosses I’m forced to obey
The evil’s always so banal
When normalised as just another day
The things we do to pay the bills
Would make our younger selves blush red
If only I could see me now
But the me I was is dead
In my bathroom there’s a mirror
But staring back at me
Unrecognizable reflection
Pseudo identity
I plaster on my daily smile
The one the world expects
I turn away and close the door
My tie a noose around my neck
Life –
binding me,
hiding me,
holding me prisoner,
entwining me
Now I need,
to break free,
now I need to begin finding me
Finding me
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To All My Almost Friends
03:04
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It’s hard to find others
When you keep losing yourself
But harder to lose them
Because they wanted someone else
Think you’ve found a home
But it’s just foster care again
A temporary reprieve
Until you’re out the door again
I don’t mean to be so difficult
But I will always speak my mind
The ones who like what they hear
Are the ones I need to find
Each time I’ve found my tribe
All too soon I don’t belong
Think that I’ve found my people
But soon find out I was wrong
Each time that I’m welcomed
I’m too soon shown to the door
I show the world who I am
It never asks for an encore
I don’t mean to be so difficult
But I will always speak my mind
The ones who like what they hear
Are the ones I need to find
I light my beacon, hopeful
It will attract like-minded light
The beacon’s glow starts to smoulder…
Fades, unseen, into the night
I shout these words out in rhythm
Write down who I am in rhyme
My voice is a constant prayer
In a world with no divine
I don’t mean to be so difficult
But I will always speak my mind
The ones who like what they hear
Are the ones I need to find
But I’m not changing for acceptance
Because those who get it, get it
And those who don’t…
…Were never worth the time
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Searching For That Scene
02:51
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I’m still searching for that scene
I dreamed of in the suburbs
Listening to records of a past already dead
Because where do you go when you want to be you
But you want to be you in a place which no longer exists?
I’m still searching for that scene
We dined on leftovers long out of date, hoping
the next meal would bring nourishment not more empty stomachs
But there’s only so many disappointing rooms taunting
Before you realise this is all you are gonna get
I’m still searching for that scene
Sending out messages in cut and paste,
With a self-addressed
Envelope
To rusting PO Boxes only answered
By the heroes we were told to never meet
Ahead of our time, we lived in the past
Unable to bridge the gap between the then and now
We were children hunting down an impossible dream
One from which they can’t seem to shake me quite awake.
I’m still searching for that scene
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Bursting From The Grave
04:28
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Just as fucked up as I ever was
Maybe fucked up a little more
The damage of a life lived wide awake
While other people close their eyes
I cut my hair sometimes to celebrate
To mark another minor liberation
You join the dots of every scar
They come together and they form a mask
That’s far too easy to slip on
I find myself when I refuse
When I raise two middle fingers at the world
Bursting from the grave
I gasp deep at the fresh air
A zombie roaming empty streets
Finding myself, Piece by piece
Just in time for them
To bury me alive again
I find myself in my old notebooks
Which read the same as this one now
And listening back to all those favourite songs
Which never fail to make me feel
The way I felt listening for the first time
I wear myself upon my sleeve
In new tattoos and ancient t-shirts
I am myself when I am ill at ease
Sleepless nights and restless days
I am nothing but my patterns
Childhood traumas locked in amber
Bursting from the grave
I gasp deep at the fresh air
A zombie roaming empty streets
Finding myself, Piece by piece
Just in time for them
To bury me alive again
We can always disappoint
The person we see standing in the mirror
But we can also make them proud
A lot is lost with every passing year
A thousand cuts of compromise
But they can never take it all away
So hold on tight to what is left
I have never been the person that they thought I was
Some days I am better
Some days I am much worse
But I am always somewhere inside even when I’m lost I’m still there clinging on
Bursting from the grave
I gasp deep at the fresh air
A zombie roaming empty streets
Finding myself, Piece by piece
Just in time for them
To bury me alive again
My nemesis is the unthinking status quo
My secret power is my power to say no
Bursting from the grave
I gasp deep at the fresh air
A zombie roaming empty streets
Finding myself, Piece by piece
Just in time for them
To bury me alive again
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Congratulations (Again)
04:38
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False smile, wide eyes
Dreams dead, lost pride
Chin up, shut down
Lost and not found
And hey, what happened to you today
Hey what happened to you?
Where is the you, the you we used to see?
The one with all the hopes and all the dreams?
The one who said the world was ours to change?
Where is the idealist artistic heart?
The revolution we were charged to start?
Where is the you, the you you used to be?
Earning a living
Worn down, give in
Sold out and employed
Bills paid, but hope void
You got a job
Mortgage, locked in
Own your own prison
Pension, pay cheque
Another lost reject
And hey, what happened to you today?
(You got a job)
Hey what happened to you?
Congratulations!
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Streets filled with conspiracy
The Masses Screaming To Be Free
Demonstrators everywhere
The rich are having quite a scare
Fighting against corruption and a murderous regime
The masses are uprising and are taking to the streets
Protest's a right supposedly in this democracy
So why on earth is everywhere surrounded by police?
Banners and singing against tear-gas, clubs and guns
Who is really protecting the peace?
This is what democracy looks like
Is this what democracy looks like?
Everyday people are screwed
By systemic structural abuse
Corporate ruling capitalists
Screw us over for their profit
But now we're getting restless and we're beating on our drums
A battle cry for freedom in our mass demonstrations
Our anger turned to magic and some more direct action
A democratic right to voice our dissatisfaction
We're growing stronger not going away
In fear they bring in their armies!
This is what democracy looks like
Is this what democracy looks like?
Cuz to me it just looks like Marshall law!
Undercover cops sparking up violence
Military nerve gasses to stop our dissent
Arrested for political opinions
As rubber bullets fly at our painted faces
The class war illustrated
As the cops protect the ruling class
This is your democracy
Aren't you so proud of what you let pass?
Freedom of speech beaten away
We speak our minds, their batons raise!
The confrontation evidence they've something to protect
Throw all you can at us cuz we will never rest!
We will fight until we win
Your mind manipulation is wearing thin
This ain't what democracy looks like!
This ain't what democracy looks like!
Because it's not a democracy when you're beaten up for speaking out
This ain't a democracy-oh no!
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Strangely Shaped By Fathers Birmingham, UK
Strangely Shaped By Fathers is Academy Morticians/Bullet of Diplomacy bassist & anarchist atheist punk rock teacher, DaN McKee, working solo with Logic Pro, GarageBand and a rudimentary understanding of how to play guitar and programme some drums alongside his bass playing. It's a one person punk "band" that mixes the personal and political. Enjoy! ... more
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